I CAME so close to giving in yesterday. I even went out and bought 10 Red Band, but managed not to open the packet.
I don't want to go back to being a slave to cigarettes. It's quite shocking to think cravings can be so strong after a relatively calm period.
What I'm worrying about now is the moment when I'm taken off the strongest nicotine replacement patch and put on a lower-strength one. There's bound to be a degree of further withrawal. I'm half tempted to go cold turkey and be done with it.
If I was wealthy, I'd check myself into a clinic and ask to be 'knocked out' for three days. If it can work for crack addicts in the States, surely it would work for a nicotine addict in the UK?
I remain determined to stay smoke-free. I might pop into St Paul's later on today and appeal for support from the highest power!